Snippets

Snippets of your memory  

Struck in my veins 

Choking 

Free movement of life .

I screamed your name thrice 

To unblock 

Those  congested  veins ...

READING BETWEEN THE LINES

​SOME

TIMES 

JUST

READING BETWEEN THE LINES 

IS NOT SO HELPFUL .

YOU HAVE TO SEARCH MEANING EVERYWHERE 

LEFT 

RIGHT

UP

DOWN

AT THE BEGINNING 

AT THE ENDING ,

JOINTS OF SENTENCES 

WHERE THE SPEAKER POSES DIFFERENT POSES .

PUNCTUATIONS MUST BE THRASHED 

EXCLAMATIONS TO BE ROBBED OF THEIR DRAMATIC POWER.

IN THE DEPTH OF PRONUNCIATION 

WHERE FEELINGS ARE SATURATED ,

THE GHOST OF INTENTION 

MUST BE EXTRACTED 

FROM THE INTERSTICES OF WORDS ,

TO MAKE SURE 

WORDS  REALLY  DO MEAN SOMETHING....

MOTHER

Your mother has suffered silently.

Washing carrots and potatoes 

She   retorted to his numbing indifference 

And retired to soybean oil .

Perhaps she still loves him.

She

 Preserving his complaints and grievances 

In the pickle jar .....

NAME

I WANTED TO HIDE MYSELF

I CHANGED MY NAME   

love between response and reaction

Love happens 

intermittently

sometimes 

sporadically ,

For instance ,

may be between 

response and reaction ,

while being with you 

or without you ,

between words 

and silence ,

by 8pm 

or 

by 11 am ,

On Sunday 

or 

Thursday ,

in December

or 

in June .

But

To say 'i love you'

is diplomacy .

Irrationality of logic, 

logic of irrationality ,

romanticization of anticipated agony ,

a web pattern of fantasies ,

a quilt of self-deceptions ,

well calculated manipulations ,

programmed emotions ,

Those symmetrical romantic moments, 

Like pickled cabbage 

absorption of pungent slavery , 

Love is a pastiche.

borrowed emotions ,

borrowed pulsations of heart ,

borrowed codes of love-behavior,

And then 

consciously spontaneous.

You still say ??

love is this and that ??

i repeat .

love happens intermittently 

or sometimes 

sporadically .......

Ab Mohabbat Kahaan Hoti Hai (A Poem)

YOU AND ME

while committing suicide 

i was thinking of YOU

and dying 

i was thinking of MYSELF...............